Fandom, Fandom, Everywhere
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dannipersonI'm reading a book at the moment called Anatomy: A Love Story by Dana Swartz. I'm enjoying it very much so far...the concept appealed to me right away: a lady in the 1800s wants to become a surgeon, but damned society! Not only is she a woman, and a noblewoman no less, but also society views surgeons as butchers. Not half as prestigious as a physician might be. So Hazel, our main character, manages to get herself into a position of being unsupervised at home, while also buying dead bodies to study. (Dead bodies bought from a "resurrection man" (or body snatcher) named Jack, who is now her love interest.)
In the beginning I had some musings of how Hazel is a nice name for a female Harry. It took ages for me to get on the Harriet Potter bandwagon so I always liked Holly or Hazel as alternatives. There's another minor character in the book named Hyacinth, which...I did in fact write a femslash Snarry where fem!Harry was called Hyacinth. Excellent name, that.
My most recent discovery is Betelgeuse...it's the name of one of the family horses, which of course made me think of Beetlejuice. I don't know that I've seen that name outside of Beeltejuice. But then Hazel mentioned it's the name of a star, which I googled, and that's actually correct! It's the name of a red supergiant in the constellation of Orion.
...which made me think of the Black family. Imagine a Betelgeuse Black, if you will.
I have a notebook at home where I keep lists of names for potential characters, particularly for fanfiction. Lists of surnames, girl names, boy names...even names for pets or shops...and aside from names, concepts! Character sheets. Etcetera. I do hope I'll remember when I get home to add it to my list of names for potential Black family members.
Which reminds me, I know I found another good name to add to the same list in another book, except I can't remember it! I'm pretty sure it must have been the Super Powereds series or the Villains Code series, but alas...I do hope I was smart enough to jot it in my notebook.
I really should go back to carrying that thing in my backpack regularly. You never know when inspiration, or miscellaneous ideas, will strike!
I'm a bit of a name nerd, actually. Back in my younger years I'd pretend I wanted kids just so I could use up some of my most beloved names. Don't worry, common sense hit me before it was too late! I'm very happy with my childfree status and giving cool names to characters instead.
Anyway, in spite of my break, fandom is never far from my mind. My beloved Snarry fandom, at least.
Before starting Anatomy I read the new Empyrean book, Onyx Storm by Rebecca Yarros, then went back through the first two books, Fourth Wing and Iron Flame. I thought about an AU set in the Empyrean-verse, where Harry was Violet and Snape was Xaden, except...instead of wingleader, Snape would be his/her teacher. All the more steamy that way, right?
In the Empyrean series, Violet has the power of lightning, which suits Harry, right? What with his lightning bolt scar. And Xaden has power over shadows, which certainly suits Snape. Plus...dragons!
Before that, I read the Villains Code series, and envisioned an AU in that world. Where Harry was the star superhero, and Severus as the big bad member of the Villains Guild. Harry with Lodestar's power is pretty cool, but I especially loved the idea of Severus with Fornax's power...
Oh wait. FORNAX. That's it!!!! Fornax, Ivan's villain's name, is the name of a constellation. Okay definitely keeping that here for future reference, in case I forgot to add Fornax to my Black family list.
Fornax Black. Betelgeuse Black. I'm really going to have to do more with the Black family in the future.
Anyway, prior to Villains Code I also envisioned an AU set in the Super Powereds series while I was reading THAT. In a side book called Corpies there's a character called Birdman and I really had a moment of wanting Harry as Birdman.
Anyway, all that to say that my boys are never far from my mind, and even while not actively writing, my brain still thinks "what if, what if..."
Even outside of my books, my usual true crime videos have put Snarry in my mind! One featured an "ugly" serial killer, where I was reminded of what beauty ideals consist of, primarily "symmetry"...and I had to have a good hard look about just how "ugly" I like Snape to be, when faced with this serial killer.
...you draw a line down the middle of this man's face and I swear the two halves looked like they belonged to different people. They looked like they might not even be related.
This ugly man killed women who didn't give him the type of sex he wanted. Apparently he preferred oral over PIV, which again, made me think of how interesting it is how people can have an array of preferences. Which, is not news to me, but the general population can't quite wrap their heads around anything "different" which just made me feel encouraged to portray more and more of those unique things.
But also it would be strange to point to a serial killer and say "see! Not everyone cares for PIV!" (Much as I do terribly enjoy writing and reading that sort of thing, haha!)
Gosh, even in music I find them. I've been on a Taylor Swift kick lately. Her most recent album was incredible, and it inspired me to go back through her discography. And since I see so much hatred for her, it makes me love her all the more in spite of people. She's a phenomenal songwriter, whether people give her the credit she's due or not, and I'm so in love with her writing.
I listen to her songs and think, I want a Snarry inspired by "All Too Well" (the 10 minute version, to be precise). Or, "Guilty as Sin" would be a sexy song to write to. "I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can)" stays on my mind.
I've recently listened to Lady Gaga's new singles, and I'm enraptured by "Abracadabra".
I truly have the Snarry brainrot.
It feels a bit counter-intuitive to let myself linger on these thoughts, since I'm supposed to be taking a break, but by the same token...it's nice to just let these thoughts and feelings linger without pushing myself to do something about it.
I miss writing in a strange way. With fond memories, but no urgency. No drive. I don't have it in me to actually get back to anything yet. I hope that day will come.
In the meantime, I need to put my notebook back in my backpack so I can jot down my thoughts as they come.
...
As an aside, I have searched up fics here and there, hunting down specific scenes. It's the strangest thing, I don't know if anyone else does this...but remembering specific feelings and scenes and looking just for those. I've been in the mood for arranges marriages and consummations lately. It's nice that I've read some of these fics enough to know what chapter to jump to or just how far down to scroll!
I really do love fandom. It's a bit easier to remember that now, with distance. It's nice being able to interact with it in my own time and my own way.
In the beginning I had some musings of how Hazel is a nice name for a female Harry. It took ages for me to get on the Harriet Potter bandwagon so I always liked Holly or Hazel as alternatives. There's another minor character in the book named Hyacinth, which...I did in fact write a femslash Snarry where fem!Harry was called Hyacinth. Excellent name, that.
My most recent discovery is Betelgeuse...it's the name of one of the family horses, which of course made me think of Beetlejuice. I don't know that I've seen that name outside of Beeltejuice. But then Hazel mentioned it's the name of a star, which I googled, and that's actually correct! It's the name of a red supergiant in the constellation of Orion.
...which made me think of the Black family. Imagine a Betelgeuse Black, if you will.
I have a notebook at home where I keep lists of names for potential characters, particularly for fanfiction. Lists of surnames, girl names, boy names...even names for pets or shops...and aside from names, concepts! Character sheets. Etcetera. I do hope I'll remember when I get home to add it to my list of names for potential Black family members.
Which reminds me, I know I found another good name to add to the same list in another book, except I can't remember it! I'm pretty sure it must have been the Super Powereds series or the Villains Code series, but alas...I do hope I was smart enough to jot it in my notebook.
I really should go back to carrying that thing in my backpack regularly. You never know when inspiration, or miscellaneous ideas, will strike!
I'm a bit of a name nerd, actually. Back in my younger years I'd pretend I wanted kids just so I could use up some of my most beloved names. Don't worry, common sense hit me before it was too late! I'm very happy with my childfree status and giving cool names to characters instead.
Anyway, in spite of my break, fandom is never far from my mind. My beloved Snarry fandom, at least.
Before starting Anatomy I read the new Empyrean book, Onyx Storm by Rebecca Yarros, then went back through the first two books, Fourth Wing and Iron Flame. I thought about an AU set in the Empyrean-verse, where Harry was Violet and Snape was Xaden, except...instead of wingleader, Snape would be his/her teacher. All the more steamy that way, right?
In the Empyrean series, Violet has the power of lightning, which suits Harry, right? What with his lightning bolt scar. And Xaden has power over shadows, which certainly suits Snape. Plus...dragons!
Before that, I read the Villains Code series, and envisioned an AU in that world. Where Harry was the star superhero, and Severus as the big bad member of the Villains Guild. Harry with Lodestar's power is pretty cool, but I especially loved the idea of Severus with Fornax's power...
Oh wait. FORNAX. That's it!!!! Fornax, Ivan's villain's name, is the name of a constellation. Okay definitely keeping that here for future reference, in case I forgot to add Fornax to my Black family list.
Fornax Black. Betelgeuse Black. I'm really going to have to do more with the Black family in the future.
Anyway, prior to Villains Code I also envisioned an AU set in the Super Powereds series while I was reading THAT. In a side book called Corpies there's a character called Birdman and I really had a moment of wanting Harry as Birdman.
Anyway, all that to say that my boys are never far from my mind, and even while not actively writing, my brain still thinks "what if, what if..."
Even outside of my books, my usual true crime videos have put Snarry in my mind! One featured an "ugly" serial killer, where I was reminded of what beauty ideals consist of, primarily "symmetry"...and I had to have a good hard look about just how "ugly" I like Snape to be, when faced with this serial killer.
...you draw a line down the middle of this man's face and I swear the two halves looked like they belonged to different people. They looked like they might not even be related.
This ugly man killed women who didn't give him the type of sex he wanted. Apparently he preferred oral over PIV, which again, made me think of how interesting it is how people can have an array of preferences. Which, is not news to me, but the general population can't quite wrap their heads around anything "different" which just made me feel encouraged to portray more and more of those unique things.
But also it would be strange to point to a serial killer and say "see! Not everyone cares for PIV!" (Much as I do terribly enjoy writing and reading that sort of thing, haha!)
Gosh, even in music I find them. I've been on a Taylor Swift kick lately. Her most recent album was incredible, and it inspired me to go back through her discography. And since I see so much hatred for her, it makes me love her all the more in spite of people. She's a phenomenal songwriter, whether people give her the credit she's due or not, and I'm so in love with her writing.
I listen to her songs and think, I want a Snarry inspired by "All Too Well" (the 10 minute version, to be precise). Or, "Guilty as Sin" would be a sexy song to write to. "I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can)" stays on my mind.
I've recently listened to Lady Gaga's new singles, and I'm enraptured by "Abracadabra".
"Hold me in your heart tonight
In the magic of the dark moonlight"
I truly have the Snarry brainrot.
It feels a bit counter-intuitive to let myself linger on these thoughts, since I'm supposed to be taking a break, but by the same token...it's nice to just let these thoughts and feelings linger without pushing myself to do something about it.
I miss writing in a strange way. With fond memories, but no urgency. No drive. I don't have it in me to actually get back to anything yet. I hope that day will come.
In the meantime, I need to put my notebook back in my backpack so I can jot down my thoughts as they come.
...
As an aside, I have searched up fics here and there, hunting down specific scenes. It's the strangest thing, I don't know if anyone else does this...but remembering specific feelings and scenes and looking just for those. I've been in the mood for arranges marriages and consummations lately. It's nice that I've read some of these fics enough to know what chapter to jump to or just how far down to scroll!
I really do love fandom. It's a bit easier to remember that now, with distance. It's nice being able to interact with it in my own time and my own way.
