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Drabble-dy, Babble-dy
Feb. 18th, 2023 07:52 amThis week has been...insane! I feel a bit bad for my user subscribers on AO3 but...ah well. I have my stats blocked currently (another story for another day) so I don't have to witness people real time going "um okay enough of this."
It began...uh...when did it begin? Sunday? Who knows. It began recently on the House of Snarry Discord server. A "drabbles and drawbles" challenge, which is basically "create a thing and claim a team and try to get your team to win by creating more stuff." Which, I generally stay out of any "challenge" type things (and really anything with numbers will be my downfall), but this month the team were all BUGS and one was a BEE and if you don't know, I'm obsessed with bees. I love them oh so much!! 🥹Sweet lil baby buggies.
Anyway the mods sure got my butt with that one haha!
So I thought: "okay I can just write really short things and just for the challenge. Low stress. I don't have to put them on AO3 or anything. Just write for the bee!!!!"
And so...I did!
Good background information would be my current writing struggles. I'm writing a very big, meaningful story for a fest and am having all of the insecurity and second-guessing and panicking. All the bad feels, generally. I'm so close to the end of it, but also so close to trashing the whole thing, cuz wow is it bad. So shifting focus to shorter, other things helped me chill out a bit, and just have fun with writing! A million and one teensy tiny ideas I always thought should be worked into a slightly longer form work, I said "eff it!" and just wrote them. And it was a lot of fun, really!
Also, my bee won, as she should! Queen Bee that she is. 👑
Then...I ended up posting several of said drabbles to AO3 anyway. The first one I did was on a whim, and I reminded myself "well...AO3 is an archive, above all else..." The first one was a silly little poem, meant for a laugh. Then little by little I began to add the others.
They're still not all up, but I'll save a few for a downtime, I think!
It did help loosen me up, I think. I ended up writing not one, but two other fics this week. Not for House of Snarry, but for Kinkuary! One was a fic I hoped to write by the end of the month, so yay me on accomplishing that! But another I wrote on a whim on Thursday.
Thursday was Kinkuary prompt "size kink" and between a conversation on another server, and a fic someone else posted, I had a lightbulb go off in my head. So even though the day was half over by the time I even STARTED, I still began, finished, edited, and posted a 3k fic on Thursday!
All the more impressive considering I was at home that day recovering from a tooth extraction. And faring more poorly than I did the first time I had a tooth extracted back in October/November.
So...I don't know. This week was a nice break from Fest Fic. I got a lot done! Various drabbles of varying drabble length. (The longest being a penta-drabble!) And best of all...my drabbles are getting more love than I expected! Or some of them are, anyway.
I don't know. Some of these ideas were images I had in my head, strong images, and I felt that...maybe they didn't need a long fic, but they needed something more. But I guess I was wrong. These stories have received such enthusiasm!! It's like...bliss, in the way all flattery is, but also...validating, I guess? Knowing that I should trust myself more. That I don't have to obsess over things, or endlessly fiddle with them for them to be good?
My goal is to work on Fest Fic this weekend, so with luck I'll keep this week's accomplishments in mind and maybe feel less of an urge to throw Fest Fic into a dumpster fire.
It began...uh...when did it begin? Sunday? Who knows. It began recently on the House of Snarry Discord server. A "drabbles and drawbles" challenge, which is basically "create a thing and claim a team and try to get your team to win by creating more stuff." Which, I generally stay out of any "challenge" type things (and really anything with numbers will be my downfall), but this month the team were all BUGS and one was a BEE and if you don't know, I'm obsessed with bees. I love them oh so much!! 🥹Sweet lil baby buggies.
Anyway the mods sure got my butt with that one haha!
So I thought: "okay I can just write really short things and just for the challenge. Low stress. I don't have to put them on AO3 or anything. Just write for the bee!!!!"
And so...I did!
Good background information would be my current writing struggles. I'm writing a very big, meaningful story for a fest and am having all of the insecurity and second-guessing and panicking. All the bad feels, generally. I'm so close to the end of it, but also so close to trashing the whole thing, cuz wow is it bad. So shifting focus to shorter, other things helped me chill out a bit, and just have fun with writing! A million and one teensy tiny ideas I always thought should be worked into a slightly longer form work, I said "eff it!" and just wrote them. And it was a lot of fun, really!
Also, my bee won, as she should! Queen Bee that she is. 👑
Then...I ended up posting several of said drabbles to AO3 anyway. The first one I did was on a whim, and I reminded myself "well...AO3 is an archive, above all else..." The first one was a silly little poem, meant for a laugh. Then little by little I began to add the others.
They're still not all up, but I'll save a few for a downtime, I think!
It did help loosen me up, I think. I ended up writing not one, but two other fics this week. Not for House of Snarry, but for Kinkuary! One was a fic I hoped to write by the end of the month, so yay me on accomplishing that! But another I wrote on a whim on Thursday.
Thursday was Kinkuary prompt "size kink" and between a conversation on another server, and a fic someone else posted, I had a lightbulb go off in my head. So even though the day was half over by the time I even STARTED, I still began, finished, edited, and posted a 3k fic on Thursday!
All the more impressive considering I was at home that day recovering from a tooth extraction. And faring more poorly than I did the first time I had a tooth extracted back in October/November.
So...I don't know. This week was a nice break from Fest Fic. I got a lot done! Various drabbles of varying drabble length. (The longest being a penta-drabble!) And best of all...my drabbles are getting more love than I expected! Or some of them are, anyway.
I don't know. Some of these ideas were images I had in my head, strong images, and I felt that...maybe they didn't need a long fic, but they needed something more. But I guess I was wrong. These stories have received such enthusiasm!! It's like...bliss, in the way all flattery is, but also...validating, I guess? Knowing that I should trust myself more. That I don't have to obsess over things, or endlessly fiddle with them for them to be good?
My goal is to work on Fest Fic this weekend, so with luck I'll keep this week's accomplishments in mind and maybe feel less of an urge to throw Fest Fic into a dumpster fire.
